iWant! =]

I was RAISED to say please & thank you, to have respect for my elders, lend a helping hand to those in need, hold the door for the person behind me, say excuse me when it’s needed, & to love people for who they are, not for what you can get from them! I was also taught to treat people the way I want to be treated! If you were raised this way too, reblog this…sadly, many won’t, because they weren’t, and it shows.

ehh

it’s funny how you never gave me a chance as a person, as your cousin’s girlfriend, as your girlfriend’s close friend. when we would all go out as a group with your friends you tend to isolate me and ken from your friends. but sorry they are my friends before i even met you so as much as they are your friends they’re mine as well. when everything was fine and dandy you could careless about me but once you two broke up i was the go to girl to talk about your heartbreak?

i told you to move on because she wont change her mind; you didnt listen to me. told you to not talk to her or go see her; you didnt listen. told you the things you’re doing is gonna annoy her and you kept doing it. how things got today you kinda just asked for it yourself. i tried talking to you so you wouldn’t talk to her(annoy her) but for about 4 months of talking about how much you miss her i just gave up being there. i was the only person you could talk to about your ex because she is my closest friend and i feel sympathy for the broken relationship. i know how it feels to be heartbroken so i tried everything i can to help but you ignored everything i had to say. 

you keep thinking that because you told my friends my whereabouts i stopped talking to you. first, if you told the whole world where i was i bet none will give a fuck. second, no one is gonna effing go stalk me so why would it even bother me? the only reason is because talking to you is a lost cause. i ended up telling you just wait for her because obviously that’s what you wanted to hear. i was so annoyed that we cannot hold a regular conversation without you talking about your ex. so i ignored you when you kept texting me in 7am when i clearly told you i dont wake up then. that’s not the big issue of it all just because i dont respond to this text i get plenty more asking me if i got the text or if im mad at you. clearly im not a morning person. asking me what im doing, where im at all day everyday more than 5 times a day i thought i was being interrogated by my dad or some shit.

rants…

its unfair the way you guys treat me and only spoil my brother. i have to pay for my instructor even though i dont have a job because you wont teach me how to drive. & turn around to teach my brother how to drive?! when we came back from vietnam 1 year ago the first thing you did was buy my brother an iphone 4 on the same day we arrived back home. now mom is cosigning a credit card for him. throughout our childhood whatever he wants he gets. from the old fashion sega box, game cube, Nintendo 64, nintendo nes system, game boys, 2 nintendo sp, nintendo ds, wii, psp, 2 slim playstation 2, & playstation 2. what do i have? NOTHING! when i was 11 i asked if i can have a ddr pad and the game i was turned down again and again. i still remember being 16 and still asking for the stupid game. but no matter how many times i ask i still wasnt gonna get it. he sleeps in the biggest room in the house with 1 laptop, 1 desktop, a big flat screen tv, amps, dvd player, a portable dvd player & speakers. anything you name he has it. i live in a freaken CLOSET. i have no tv no speakers no amp. nothing!

when i was helping out angie that time i was getting paid 50+ dollars a day for 4 days and you took all my money. when i got my financial aids you took all my money. when i got my scholarships you took all my money. how am i suppose to go to school if i dont even have money to buy books?everyone else has parents at least saved money for their kids to go to college. but instead i have fucken crappy ass parents like you two that only knows how to take from me.

to this day has my brother even made a penny? no, so why does he get everything and i get nothing. i try helping with everything you guys need help with. if it wasnt for me would you be getting any money till this day? but i dont even get $20 a month for allowances. in a year i only get about $60 from you and those doesnt even cover the food ive been putting on the table for you guys.

have any of you thought about me? i helped so much and in return i dont even get a thank you? im done caring about you guys because none of you care about me. but only the money i have. i have so much hatred for all of you & im not suppose to because you guys are my family but im sick and tired of being neglected.

change=]

“It’s hard to watch people change in front of you, but the worst part is remembering who they used to be.”-unknown

As much as you think I changed, you changed as well. That’s okay though; we moved on with our lives, left people behind that wasn’t worth our time. Sadly that our friendship couldn’t with stand 16 years. I can brush it off my shoulders and act as if we never met before, didn’t share any memories together. I just wish that you are happy where you are and with the people you’re surrounded by.